Hello everyone and welcome back.
Okay, so we all know i’m leaving for my D.C trip next week. It’s going to be my first solo trip and i’m really looking forward to it. I’ve been talking about this trip sporadically for a couple of weeks, I’ve asked my mom advice about toll booth money, and about renting a car. Last week, she asks me to help out with the cable bill (the previous week bro demanded I help with the bill, this two days after SallieMae was “Guess whose back? you’re six months are up! You’ve a bill to pay!”) So at that rate I was rather annoyed. I don’t mind helping her, but it’s like “you know I’m leaving in a few weeks right? I really don’t have the money to be paying these bills. right before the trip, I took care of my bills ahead of time so I could enjoy my trip with no issues but she is doing the most.
So she brought up the bill again, and I reminded her “You know i’m leaving next week right?” And she gives me this shock look that says “You were serious about the trip.” Then she asked me “How are you getting there” I reminded her yet again that i’m driving (The first time I told her she was shocked and I said ‘don’t worry i’m renting a car I’m not taking yours’-I’m not that rude enough to assume she would let me take her car out of state. That seem to make her happy, and she didn’t give any advice on car renting she said “you don’t have car insurance they’ll probably charge you $500.00 on top of the fees. (I have never rented a car before but that didn’t sound right. I contacted a rental place and their like the deposit is $250 + w/e the rental for the car is.) I’ve been looking up car rental places, hotels, I order a travel guide of the city so I could make an itinerary, it’s like “what the hell did you think I was going on about it for?” Now mom is trying to talk me out of the trip and using the whole [“You can’t do it by yourself. whose going with you? me: It’s a solo trip! mom: you can’t do the high way, me:I’m pretty sure i’ve done the high way before.” Her: How much are you taking in gas? Me: $130 give or take. Mom: that’s not going to be enough, you’re not renting a huge car are you, those pull too much gas, you’d be better in a smaller car.] I don’t like this “naivety/learned helplessness” thing she’s trying to push on me. There is nothing mentally, or physically wrong with me that would inhibited me from doing this drive. I was telling her, I got to learn at some point, and of course I wouldn’t take a big car. One they cost more to rent let alone fill up with gas, and two i’m the only one in the car why would I need something huge? then she started asking me to look at her work schedule even though we had went over it 2-3 weeks ago and established that she’s working those days and can’t go. * I feel like she thinks i’m not thinking at all, I know I need a car, with a GPS, I know that will cost money. I plan on making sandwiches and drinks the night before the trip, so I don’t have to worry about food along the way. (so that’ll save me money). I’ve also planned an itinerary with things (majority of them free) but some do cost money, the most expensive thing on my list is madam T. house of wax which is $20, but with my coupon that brings it down to $15 without out tax.
Which I’m grateful for, its like “are you really trying to crash my trip?” We all know my 26th birthday (last year) sucked! It will definitely go down as one of my most unhappiest birthday. My 25th birthday, I took her to ballet (I paid for the tickets, and the parking) all she did throughout everything was complain. She complained about the paying for parking (even though I was one who paid), she complained we should have saw “BB King instead” (even though it was my birthday gift to myself not hers.) She complained so much about everything that even the ushers were annoyed with her. We ended up leaving at the half-time part. I was really embarrassed by her behavior, she still doesn’t think she did anything wrong.
I digress, this trip isn’t about her, or my family or obligations. It’s about me. I need this solo trip. I need the break away from the negativity. I need to prove to myself that I can drive 6 hours by myself. I can plan a trip by myself. I think it would do me a world of good to get out of my state and go some place unfamiliar. I deserve to have a memorable 27th birthday. Whether this trip ends up being awesome or a series of unfortunate events, I’m coming back with a great story to tell (I will be video blogging and taking plenty of pictures to show everyone). I hope I get to learn something new about myself, and get the “recharge” that I need to keep moving forward. I feel like i’m going on empty, with really nothing to look forward to except another bill. I want an adventure and I’m going to get it. And when I do my little pit stops, I’m gonna play the lottery along the way, with any luck fortune will smile down favorably upon me =D. If I get a couple extra dollars to help me out on this trip I won’t complain. This trip is about personal growth