Hello everyone, and welcome back once again. I trust all of you are having nice weekend and if not; then I hope at least this week will be nice for you.
Okay, Let’s do a quick recap:
So after a little over a month of waiting I finally got the authorization to get an MRI. This is my second time getting one, the first time I got one was back in 2009 I did talk about but that post was on my Xanga (show of hands how many people remember Xanga? its basically like wordpress) Here is an excerpt of how it went down: [ Last time had a bad migraine got put in the loud machine, which BTW it was cold in there. They gave me this itchy blanket that did not keep me warm. And the technician guy; I don’t think he was use to taking blood. He pulled me half way out the machine. I kept jerking from the needle. I Told him if he pulls me all the way out and I can see him do it, I won’t jerk. But he said he couldn’t. Finally, on the fifth try I was like “okay just do it now!” by then he looked very nervous and was shaking. The Bastard took too much blood. I know, because he was like ” I think I took too much…” When I got up everything was spinning I felt horrible, he looked really freaked out. Him:are you okay…maybe you…
Me: get away from me, just point me to the exit!
My bro looked shocked to see me come from the room. I didn’t get back up that day until around 7pm. I remember mom coming home and bro saying “Idk what those ppl did to her when she went in there she was fine she came out looking like death, staggering all over the place! She’s been sleeping ever since!”]
As for today I’m going on four days straight of me having a migraine with no breaks, and it’s taking a toll on my vision and the medication is not working. To be honest, since I’ve gotten back on my meds (I was off it for awhile due to lack of funds, bills and overdraft fees) I noticed my medication hasn’t been working like use to, It took more medication for me end the migraine. I think i’m building up a tolerance.
Any who, I didn’t get the message about the authorization for the MRI Friday January 20th in the afternoon, and they had scheduled it for the 23rd. Obviously I couldn’t do it that day, b/c it was too short notice. So I rescheduled it for Monday the 30th. I figured t would give my boss time to sign my time off request- A girl’s gotta get them coins you know!
So basically the weeks go by, you know he didn’t check his mailbox. So last Friday, in the morning I asked if I could have a meeting with him, and let him know I was not going to be there on Monday-and what the situation was. He was very understanding. Ten minutes later he finally checks his mailbox finds my time off request and signs it and gives it to me. I had already told the secretary a few days prior I would be out on Monday.
I know some will find this to be a horrible thing to say…But I do hope the MRI finds something wrong with me, I’ve been in a lot of pain (as you’ve all heard me complain) But these last few days the pain has been sharper and it’s staying in the same spot. Also I noticed the top layer of my brain feels like it’s burning (kinda like those pills the neurologist gave me that people hemiplegic migraines aren’t suppose to take) that type of burning but I haven’t had any). The reason I say this is because, if the results come back negative then I know the doctors will drop the subject once again. You know after years of migraines-I was the one who suggested seeing a neurologist, or when medication doesn’t work-i’m the one who suggest trying something new-while the doctor is the one who assumes I’m the one who didn’t follow instructions… The pain will still be there, the memory loss will still be there…and I will continue to suffer as the doctors turn a blind eye to pain.
I hate this, I’m tried of being in pain and watching myself deteriorate. You know what sucks even more, i’m somewhat envious of those with physical abnormalities-at least others can see what’s wrong with them. They get a pass…But when you have something internal like hemiplegic migraines/Chronic migraine people can’t see it, a lot assume you’re faking, or you can take Tylenol and get over it.