Hello everyone, and welcome back. Long time no see; I trust all of you have been well.
Nothing much really going on with me, my brother’s loud girlfriend went back to her country. I have one more appointment left on my dental adventure (the crowning) and then I am done. Whether the dentist feels as though his work is done or not, is on him. But on December 27, 2016 “I” am declaring myself done with this process. Since I used up my dental insurance for this year, the crowning I had to pay out of pocket. It went from $448 down to $397. I wish they had done the crowning earlier in the process so I could have gotten that covered by insurance. I told the secretary at my last appointment on Monday to cancel my cleaning (I had scheduled that months back) I don’t think she took it out of the system, yesterday I receive a reminder card about the appointment.Personally, I have floss, Listerine and I know where to get Crest Whitening strips- I think i’m good. I’m a little down about Christmas this year, I really wanted this year to be about me. Christmas is about “receiving not giving” But for the past couple of Christmases I have been doing a lot of giving and no receiving. Last year’s Christmas was just horrible, I felt as though people i.e family were not appreciative of the gifts that they receive. Which sucks, because I use my whole paychecks to buy gifts- things they actually want or said that they wanted throughout the year. This year, I really wanted to be selfish and just treat myself, and only get gifts for myself. I’ve had a pretty tough shitty year and felt as though at least the end of 2016 should be nice. But because of the crowning process I had to push some bills back, timing wise of everything just doesn’t match up. I foresee myself only having a couple of dollars for on Christmas. Doesn’t help there is an office party coming up, they decided to do a secret Santa-I was the only one who opted out of it. (I literally only have 36 cents to my name.) I can’t afford cards let alone gifts for people! I know I come off looking stingy-I don’t have the money for this. I wish I could just skip the party and the festivities. It sucks when your reality is “you’re the poorest person in the room.”
So far, Christmas has turned into a total bummer. Its like just when you think you get a little ahead, you run out of something, or there isn’t enough food, or the car needs gas, doctor’s appointments etc.”
Seeing how broke I am, left me a little hopeless for 2017 so what’s a girl to do whose curious about the future? I went and check out my horoscope for 2017, It’s like “yeah…2017 is NOT you’re year!” And all I could think was “B*tch it hasn’t been my year since 2014!” When am I going to catch a break. So i’m like okay, my luck sucks maybe my twenty-eight birthday will be better, and as i’m planning ahead with a guesstimation of how much I think i’ll get from my tax return I was reminded, of my past previous birthdays and me “trying something new” and my mother ruining my birthday with her constant complaints/ interference. I was thinking of doing a solo trip to Hawaii- I crave the beach and ocean, warm sunny days but mainly being away from all negativity and just enjoying the view of the ocean. I foresaw her trying to crash in on my vacation…again. So i’m like “let’s go somewhere – but she cannot come.”
Which brings me to the title of this post I saw this picture on Facebook, and it got me thinking which would you choose” I like the idea of having 2016 mindset in 1998. But going back 18 years is a lot. and I had a crappy childhood. My childhood is not something I would want to relive. But the idea of waking up at 45 with $50million in the bank would be nice. I would be curious to know what happened in that 17 year span. So I guess for me it’s the red pill. Which would you choose?